Torching Teldrassil (Horde)

Torching Teldrassil (Horde)

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The War of Thorns

I’ve never particularly been a fan of elves of any sort in any fantasy setting. They’ve never been my jam. Don’t even really care for them in Lord of the Rings. To me, they always feel very trope-ish, and I have yet to find one in my reading that breaks all the “Elven” tropes. Even in WoW. I tried hard to like Elves in WoW. But I only got a Night Elf Druid to level 6 and a Blood Elf Paladin to level 5 before I made aggravated noises and rolled different characters.

But this dislike of Elves has only ever extended into the realm of, “eh, I don’t care for Elves and will roll my eyes at you for trying to convince me to play one,”, and “that’s awesome that you like Elves and think they’re great and have perfect qualities! I’m happy for you! But that still doesn’t change my opinion.”

So this whole, poison-Elves-and-burn-their-town-to-start-our-advance felt really dirty. And completely against how the Alliance and Horde have been attempting to work together to conquer the Legion this past expansion.

And then just like, choosing to burn down Teldrassil just because? JUST BECAUSE?! I know Sylvanas isn’t a nice character, per se. I know how conflicted she is per her back story. And I understand her tactical advances (the first portion of the questline). But this was a step way too far. Just because she wants to “kill hope”? Like. Just. This is epic bullshit.


After finally finishing the War of Thorns on Horde side, I watched the Saurfang cinematic. I don’t really know how to put into words all the feelings I had while watching it, outside of saying that I cried at all the things. Pretty much the entire time. For lots of different reasons. I’m excited to see how Saurfang plays out as a part of the expansion story, because Blizzard wouldn’t spend the resources on making a cinematic like this if it wasn’t important.

Becoming a Yakuza

Becoming a Yakuza

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Sunday I got into my first Yakuza game ever—Yakuza 0. I’ve been watching Sushi and Elly play various Yakuza games for a while (I can never seem to catch Ty when he’s streaming!), and they look like fun. But I’ve always postulated that fighting games (and shooters) aren’t my jam, so I’ve never really delved into them outside of one or two attempts at different titles (of which I couldn’t even name, now).

Having won Sushi’s most recent subscriber giveaway, I found Yakuza 0 sitting in my library. And since I was having fun watching the ladies play, I figured it was worth at least giving it a try myself (on the easiest setting, of course).

And you know what? I had a blast! I’m engaged in the story, the fighting pieces feel relevant and I’m not beating my head against a wall on them, and I’m enjoying the humor a lot (the “fisting master” piece broke me—approx 1:27:00)!

I’m looking forward to playing more of it and working my way through the story.

Streaming: Week of August 5

Streaming: Week of August 5

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As I’ve mentioned before in regards to my streaming, I’ve been dealing with a pretty rough patch of depression. But one of the goals I set for myself for the month was to stream once a week to get back into the swing of things. Even if that’s all I do until I get settled in a new apartment sometime in September.

Sunday’s stream counted as a part of the first “week” of August for my personal counting purposes. I decided that I needed something where I could lean back in my chair (thus, needed to be a controller), and something that was fun, had some story, but was pretty mindless. So I decided on Yakuza 0 (which I won from a subscriber giveaway that Sushi did).

I know streaming isn’t everyone’s shtick, but if you’re interested, come by and hang out some on Thursday!

August ’18 Gaming Goals

August ’18 Gaming Goals

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I love stumbling across these kinds of things in games. They’re part of the reason I set game goals! To explore!

Like many other bloggers participating in Blaugust, I am one to set gaming goals. I won’t go into reasons why, at this particular moment, only because I was inspired by someone else who doesn’t do gaming goals to go into a deeper explanation on why I create them! This post is also a “get the post in for the day” type deal, as I’m having a low spoon day, and I had to do some apartment hunting on top of it.

For a bit of clarification (because it may seem like a lot of goals), when I set my goals, I don’t set them to necessarily be accomplished for the month. But more on that in the aforementioned post.

World of Warcraft

As I outlined in my Pre-BfA post:

  • Level Chest-Dwarf to 60 (then boost to 110) for Double Agent achievement
  • Level Macadamia to 110 (towards Quintessential Quintet achievement)
  • Obtain flying in Draenor (so that I can level more alts for Quintessential Quintet)
    • Finish Nagrandeur achievement
    • Explore Shadowmoon Valley achievement
    • Explore Nagrand acheivement
    • Securing Draenor achievement
    • Revered with The Sabersatlkers
    • Revered with Order of the Awakened
    • Revered with Vol’in’s Headhunters
  • Level Arraign (Femcow Death Knight) to 110
  • Level ?? (probably Kaelari, the Femcow Paladin) to 110

Secret World Legends

  • Finish out all leftover side missions up to Egypt

ARPG August

This is part of the community game-along run by Apricot Sushi at Chic-Pixel.

  • Pick up Diablo 3 for the first time!*

*Well, kinda more the second time. I didn’t get far the first time, only two hours in.

Final Fantasy XIV

  • ARC 30
  • FSH 20
  • LNC 15
  • PGL 15

Cross-class skills are a thing, and I’d like to start picking them up in a reasonable fashion.

One Fish, Two Fish

One Fish, Two Fish

This post (3/31) is part of the Blaugust Reborn event! You can find out more about the event at Belghast’s blog. I (Chestnut) created a Twitter list of all participants. Armagon created an OPML file of all the bloggers to import into your feed reader.

Both Rumorsmatrix and  Stroeb recently talked about going fishing in WoW. Which made me get bitten by the fishing bug. But not in WoW (I have a lot of other achievements I’m focusing on than grinding out my fishing ones), in Final Fantasy. A while ago, when I streamed some FFXIV on Twitch, I told folks I was going to just level through ARC/BRD (currently at 24) to max and ignore FSH and go back to it later.

But after seeing those fishing blog posts, the fishing bug bit me bad, and I had to hop in and play some last night. I dug out the fishing leveling guide I was using a while ago, though I don’t know how accurate it is anymore? My old main never made it past the 30s in fishing, if I recall. I spent a good two hours just chilling in Limsa, using up all my rested EXP (woops), and getting to FSH 10. I’m looking forward to doing some more fishing.

But also just found out that there’s a weekly fashion contest at the Gold Saucer, so now I’m torn on which spec to spend some time on this weekend…

Scarcity of Subjects

Scarcity of Subjects

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Methodizing Material

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The theme for Blaugust from August 1-7 is “Topic Brainstorming Week”. The hard part is… I don’t really have any? Most of the time when I write, I choose to expound about what’s going on with me. Or sometimes I’ve gotten an idea from another blogger’s post, or from interacting with friends on social media (mainly Twitter).

In fact, one of my favorite ways to mine “evergreen” post topics is to browse the Massively OP’s Massively Overthinking opinion column for ideas! Tons of my “to-be-written” posts stem from the column. So, I’ve never really needed to “come up with” blog topics. In fact, my backlog of unwritten posts is pretty vast (it just requires energy and the right headspace, and the headspace part has been pretty difficult as of late).

But, since the theme for the week is essentially a topic dump, I will come up with a few to be a good mentor and contributor. 🙂

Promising Prompts

  1. If you could only play one game for the rest of 2018, what would it be? It doesn’t have to be an MMO. Would you just ignore games the rest of the year if you could only play one?
  2. Is there a game (board, video, card, LARP event, etc.) or other media (TV show, movie, book, comic) you’re super excited to release before the end of the year? Share your passion!
  3. (While talking about “worst super heroes” at dinner last night (Verdict: FLORIDA MAN!), I started thinking about this topic.) If you could be a superhero (or supervillain), what would you be? Think the whole shebang—not just your powers. What’s your backstory? Your outfit? Who’s your Scooby Squad/Sidekick? Do you make use of an Alternate Identity (Tony Stark is Ironman, whereas Clark Kent isn’t Superman). Who would be your nemesis? Get creative!
  4. What is one fandom that has stuck with you through the test of time? When did you come into this fandom? How? Do you think this is a fandom you’ll love for the next few years? Will it stand the test of time?
  5. What is one (or more) thing you love to collect? It could be physical or digital. It could be fandom-related, or something antique. Share a picture/screenshot or two of your collection so far!
Some Last Advice

Some Last Advice

This post (1/31) is part of the Blaugust Reborn event! You can find out more about the event at Belghast’s blog. I (Chestnut) created a Twitter list of all participants. Armagon created an OPML file of all the bloggers to import into your feed reader.
Columbo would like your attention real quick!

Okay yes, I know that Blaugust prep week (and thus the advice-centric week) is over, but I wanted to do one last small piece of advice, that’s actually kind of important.

That’s right. If you plan on advertising your posts on social media (outside of the Blaugust Discord), it benefits Belghast if you use the correct hashtag. I know that sometimes it’s difficult to remember, and some folks have mentioned that they’re shy/uncomfortable with pimping their stuff (News Flash: YOU ROCK FOR DOING THIS, DON’T BE SHY! YOU ARE AMAZING! PIMP THAT BAD BOY.), but, truly, it helps.

Let me give you a story to put it into perspective.

In November, I run a blogging initiative/event called IntPiPoMo (International Picture Posting Month—and I hope y’all will still be blogging and want to participate!). The TL;DR premise is that a picture is work 1k words, so posting 50 pics throughout the month means you’ve written 50k words (the goal for NaNoWriMo, also held during November).

Having to go through multiple blogs throughout the month and keep a count of the pictures that people have posted can be quite a task! Especially if I take a social media break for a day or two. So some folks started to keep a tally on their blog posts (at the top or bottom), and they generously used the #IntPiPoMo tag on Twitter. It’s a task whether there are 8 participants, or 20 participants. Not that it isn’t fun. I get great enjoyment out of it. But it’s a lot of hours per week devoted to the task.

So imagine, for a moment, having 80+ blogs (HOLY MOLY!) to go through. And not only are you counting the number of posts written by these blogs, you’re trying to keep track of which tiers they’ve accomplished (there are 5). Then imagine taking a day or two off for a personal break.

Bel is a pretty spectacular person (though, I’m pretty sure we all are at least starting to realize this by now!). He’s giving many hours of his day (and thus week) to help tackle the Blaugust event. He is giving us the benefit of his time and energy, and that’s a commodity when you’re an adult. So, obviously, he cares! If he didn’t, he wouldn’t do this.

So just give him a small moment of help—tag your posts on social media, and consider adding a post counter at the top (or bottom) of your posts. In fact, if you want, you can steal mine!

Thanks for letting me get on my soapbox, folks. And I’ll be actually following the weekly prompt tomorrow!

Impostor Syndrome and Your Blog

Impostor Syndrome and Your Blog

Blaugust Prep Week

Guess what time it is everybody! It’s the end of the week before Blaugust Reborn starts on Wednesday, August 1st! Before I delve into my mentor pre-Blaugust post, I wanted to toss up a quick reminder that I’m working on something I’m coining as the, “Blaugust Reborn Mini Cast”. It’s essentially a quick hit of those that want to participate into, well, how they got started, and why they’re participating. A quick, “get to know you”, if you will.

You can view my original thoughts on it at this post, but I figured after talking to a few folks, I’d do a quick update on it, and just repost it here for ease-of-use, since we’re now edging on 70 (maybe over?!) bloggers, by now!

The Concept

  • Create a 5-20 minute audio clip answering a smattering of the below questions
  • Load the audio clip into a file-sharing location (Dropbox, Drive, etc.)
  • DM me in Discord (from the Blaugust discord) with the link to your audio file

The Questions

All Participants

Please include in your audio file:

  • The pseudonym you go by
  • Your blog title
  • Why did you decide to get into blogging? What’s your “origin story”? (It can be as simple as, “a friend was doing it”, or “it sounded fun!”)
  • How long you’ve been blogging
  • Whether you’re a mentor-participant or blaugustan-participant


Please include in your audio file:

  • Why did you sign up as a mentor for Blaugust?
  • What do you hope to get out of Blaugust?
  • What is one (1) piece of advice you’d give to others for blogging? (It could be for completely new bloggers, folks returning to blogging, or veteran bloggers.)


Please include in your audio file:

  • What do you hope to get out of Blaugust?
  • What are you looking forward to the most?
  • What are you looking forward to the least?

Now, onto my actual mentor topic!

Impostor Phenomenon (/Syndrome)

In 1978, researchers Clance and Imes coined the term impostor phenomenon as, “the psychological experience of believing that one’s accomplishments came about not through genuine ability, but as a result of having been lucky, having worked harder than others, or having manipulated other people’s impressions”, stating in this study that the participants, “chronically feared not being able to maintain their success”.

“But, Chestnut, how does this relate to blogging?”

I’ve seen this mentality pop up time and again with other bloggers in my eight and a half years of blogging, but I’ve also seen these feelings shared by those that are participating in Blaugust Reborn. Hell, I’ve experienced them myself many a time.

So I wanted to talk briefly about it, because it’s not a topic I’ve seen other people cover, and psychology is something I am fond of researching and discussing (I mean, that is part of why I want to get a PhD in Counseling…).

Lots of folks out there feel these feelings. It’s okay. It’s natural. Sometimes, it’s tied to other mental illnesses (if you suffer from anxiety or depression, for example, the brain weasels are quite common, and are similar to the kinds of thoughts those with impostor syndrome are prone to think, though it shorter bursts).

You know what, though? You’re not a failure. You’re not going to be terrible. You do deserve to be a part of this endeavor, and you are talented enough to be a blogger/writer/content creator.

The Muse has some tips for combatting imposter phenomenon, but I wanted to focus on one in particular—writing it down.

The Muse states to write out your personal story. To let yourself shine on paper. And then accept that it’s true.

Because, really, it is. The fact that you decided to blog (or stream, or just be a content creator in any sense), whether it was yesterday, or ten years ago, is a huge accomplishment. It may seem like it’s something that everybody does, but I think that’s because we’re in the thick of it.

So remember as Blaugust continues, regardless of what you accomplish compared to your own goals (or what you think they should be), you are successful, you are deserving of being a part of this community, and you’re not the only one who feels this way.

Y’all got this. And y’all’re going to kick ass.

Depression and Streaming

Depression and Streaming

When Depression Hits

I’ve never shied away from talking about how I suffer from depression and anxiety. I may not always get into full-blown details, but it has never been something that I hide. It has, however, been very intense the past month or so. Which in turn has been making it difficult to do even basic things. You may have seen me talk about “spoons” on Twitter (relating back to Spoon Theory). I honestly prefer “Spell Theory”, though, if I’m explaining it to my nerdier friends.

Well, on a typical weekday basis, I have a lot to do—get up for work, prep food for work, take care of the pets, get ready for work, go to work (possibly have multiple meetings), go home, take care of the pets… and then depending on the day, my evenings differ. I could have a LARP ST meeting, or pole class, or date night, or WoW raid (currently on hiatus, which helps). Then add in any chores that need to be taken care of, or a shower… you get the idea.

On a day when my depression is good (manageable), and I’ve filled my spell slots because I was able to sleep the night before, I can manage pretty much everything (maybe taking out some chores, or a shower), and then add in some streaming because I feel good, and enjoy streaming and interacting with folks.

But life has been stressful (car accident, multiple chronic health concerns, apartment flooding), and thus my already limited spell slots (I haven’t been sleeping well due to the other chronic health stuff) have been used up lickity-split on things from managing contact between car insurance and car loan, to just getting out of bed in the morning and getting to work. It’s to the point where I come home, take care of the pets, and take a nap so that I can try to function and tackle minor things.

I do think this week is starting to be a turn-around week, however, due to laying out some short-term future plans (planning moving to a new apartment, car accident management is almost done, doctor appointments have been made), and being able to manage my spoons a little bit better (sleep is starting to get better, slightly, slowly increasing my spoon count).

Schedule Going Forward

So what does that mean for streaming? Well, that means my schedule for the next few weeks will be up in the air. I will not be streaming this week (July 22-28). I do want to slowly get back on the wagon with streaming, however. So I’m going to be working at this by looking to stream one day a week to begin. The downside is that this day will be up in the air, and the game I’ll be playing will also be up in the air depending on where I’m at, and what I can manage.

Once I’ve conquered more real-world shenanigans (the car being settled, getting set to move and break my lease, going to doctor appointments), I’ll be able to do more of the follower giveaways, etc. that I’ve set up and haven’t gotten to due to the depression. I am going to wait, however, on setting up my web cam for streams, because I’ve already started packing some things up, and it was one of those things. That’ll finally get used in late-September, early-October (after moving).

I originally wanted to try a birthday stream (my birthday is next week) sometime in early-August, but there is no guarantees on anything, anymore. I will probably nix a birthday stream, and just do a long Halloween-themed stream instead, because it seems much more manageable after moving.

So, TL;DR? Keep an eye on Twitter, or join the Caticorn Palace Discord to keep up to date on streams, and just chat in general.

Pre-BfA Rush

Pre-BfA Rush

Hurry Hurry!

I did it. I ground stuff out and did things and stuff! And things. I’ve been kind of disenamored with WoW, as of late. Partially because depression makes it difficult to do anything but sit in front of Netflix, as of late, but also because I haven’t been enjoying alt raiding. Thus, I couldn’t really motivate myself in any sense to log in for a while. Which put me at a detriment when I tried grinding out a few things the two days prior to patch-day.

The Gold Queen put out a reminder about how Pet Tokens were changing, and that we should use them up before they were essentially dust. I didn’t actually know that was happening (I have a habit of not reading up on anything until changes happen because it’s all in so much flux and I don’t have the spoons to handle consistent changes in my games on top of managing life). So I rushed over to Dalaran, and talked to the fine ladies in the Menagerie. I picked up my mirror toy, and just bought a bunch of stones and bags to use up all of my tokens. So I guess I’ll get to do a bit of grinding out on pets when Squirt comes around, and use some stones, as well.

I also finally made it over to the Mage Tower on my main. I honestly don’t care much about alts, but I wanted the skin for my main spec (Prot), at the very least. It took me a few tries, though, despite trying it ages ago when it first released (to much failure). First try, haha. Well. It went extremely poorly. I forgot about only taking approximately 5-7 stacks (I had 10) and firmly faceplanted, even with an orb. The second try, I breezed through the first half and easily got to Kruul… where I got knocked off the platform (though I am unsure if it was by him or an add). The third time I had him down to 4%! But, look! An add! And no Intercept! Wheeeeee! Off the side I go again! The fourth time I was very confused. I got him down to 1%, and then thought I died. I was so absolutely angry. I was cursing and going on about not wanting to do it again (even though I knew I would), and then realized I’d rez’d in Dal. Wait. What? Why am I in Dal? Wait… did it say I got him in the quest? IT SAID I GOT HIM IN THE QUEST! So I trotted myself over to sexy Dadgar and handed it in and got my new (fairly ugly) mage tower skin. I called it quits on skins, after that. I rarely play DPS on Chestnaught because Blizzard has ruined trying to level alt-specs for me. And they also ruined playing alts for me (a thing I adored back in Wrath and Cataclysm before my five year hiatus), so I didn’t bother hopping on my Shaman or Hunter to grind those out.

Then I finally decided to get the last few First Aid achievements I needed. And can we just say that Field Medic was a pain in the butt… but bless all those parties that were going. And, honestly? Those parties made me feel a lot better about the WoW environment! I’ve spent a lot of time avoiding pugs of all sort this expansion because of some pretty poor experiences at the start (and then consistently getting kicking my under max level characters in every single Timewalk I tried…), but the Field Medic parties were pretty good. They were either completely silent outside of a “brb handing in”, or they were super chatty, wishing each other luck, joking about wishing drops could be traded, just generally chatting, etc. It was a nice backdrop while I watched Interview With a Vampire for the first time.

Meander a Bit

I’d been trying to work on grinding out some reps that were going away in the pre-patch, but I just haven’t had the time, for the reasons listed above. But, I still have a few things I’d like to finish before the end of the patch:

  • Level Chest-Dwarf to 60 (then boost to 110) for Double Agent achievement
  • Level Macadamia to 110 (towards Quintessential Quintet achievement—which puts me at 3/5 if I recall?)
  • Obtain flying in Draenor (so that I can level more alts for Quintessential Quintet)
    • Finish Nagrandeur achievement
    • Explore Shadowmoon Valley achievement
    • Explore Nagrand acheivement
    • Securing Draenor achievement
    • Revered with The Sabersatlkers
    • Revered with Order of the Awakened
    • Revered with Vol’in’s Headhunters
  • Level Arraign (Femcow Death Knight) to 110
  • Level ?? (probably Kaelari, the Femcow Paladin?) to 110

Yeah, there’s a theme there. I’d like all my Tauren ladies to be up and at max for the release of the expansion. So, we’ll see how far I get in a month…ish. So, those are my goals going forwards! What are you guys working on to finish out before BfA?